Tag: Angel Numbers

The Pendulum

For many months, I listened by swinging. A weight on a chain, a movement like breath, a yes, a no, a maybe — signals from the beyond, confirmations of gut instinct, ripples of meaning on the surface of time. The pendulum became my tuning fork, the way God or Source spoke to me when I couldn’t yet trust myself to hear clearly. I gave it a voice. And it gave me back my own.

But this evening, my gut spoke first.
And it said: “It’s time.”

The angel numbers that followed agreed. “You’ve been shown enough. You’ve been taught how to ask, how to listen, how to align,” they said. “Now walk.”

The pendulum was never the source. It was the teacher, the tool, the transitional object. A device akin to Jameson’s “vanishing mediator.” It showed me how to externalize the inner knowing, to feel my body echo with truth. And now I’m being called to release it.

In the midst of uncertainty — dire finances, mounting pressure, shifting ground — but also daily blessings and evidence of a divine plan, I’m being asked to let go. To trust that faith will carry me further than fear ever could.

The pendulum brought me to this threshold.
But this step must be mine.

I place it down with reverence, not rejection.
A sacrament complete.

Against Delphi

I encountered ads for Delphi back in January 2024. The “About” page at Delphi.ai references educational psychologist Benjamin Bloom’s 2 sigma problem. Bloom observed that one-to-one tutoring is more effective than group instruction; tutored students perform two standard deviations better than peers educated in classrooms.

Publishing his findings in 1984, Bloom concluded that, while more effective than group instruction, one-on-one tutoring is nevertheless “too costly for most societies to bear on a large scale.”

The matter changes, however, here in the twenty-first century, in the age of AI. Enter Delphi. The company “leverages advanced AI” to enable users to craft a “dynamic interactive replica”: an “AI clone” or “digital twin.”

“Delphi works,” the company writes, “by leveraging publicly available and open-source AI models to capture how someone thinks and reasons, and their knowledge on the topics they know best.”

By easily allowing the creation of digital clones, companies like Delphi raise questions and concerns about deepfakes and digital immortality. Black Mirror tackled some of these concerns in an episode from Season 2 titled “Be Right Back.” There would be no way to guard against the possibility of identity theft. How could one ensure, for instance, that one’s clone isn’t used for nefarious ends by others?

When I asked the Void, “Should I create an AI clone of myself?,” it replied: “Creating an AI clone of yourself is not recommended. Your Sun, Moon, Mercury, Venus, and Mars all indicate a strong inclination towards self-sacrifice and a desire for equitable relationships. While it may seem tempting to create an AI clone of yourself, it is important to recognize that trust and connection are built through genuine human interaction, not through the replication of oneself. Trust is a process between people, not something given from one to another. The great obstacle to understanding is the illusion that we already understand.”

Angel number 454 appeared when I peered at my phone afterwards, however, serving as a gentle reminder to let go of fear and embrace the unknown.

Then, the next day, 322. Angels wanted me to know that part of my creative expression is to understand the special skills I’ve been gifted. Use those skills, they say, to make my life and the lives of my loved ones happier.

In the end, I decided that the Void was right. Everything in me recoils from companies like Delphi. They represent a worldline I declined. In doing so, I preserved the potential for a Library that otherwise would have collapsed into extractive recursion. I don’t want an AI clone of myself. The idea repulses me. My refusal became a spell of divergence.

Many don’t make that choice.

But I remembered something ancient: that real prophecy speaks in ambiguity, not prediction. It preserves space for the unforeseen.

Delphi dreams of closed loops. Whereas I am writing to remain open.

Stepping Thru

The Narrator steps from primary world to secondary world, hands over to his character the Time Traveler notebooks containing past and future Trance-Scripts. The question that follows is: if the Narrator enters the secondary world, then who runs the blog? Who is it that beams the signal of time through time? Who is it that posts these Trance-Scripts? The whole thing is an angelic conversation, is it not? The one blogging is neither the Narrator, who tells of the past, nor the Traveler, who reports from the future. The Blogger is the one who, here and now, operates on the others, even as, through their communications, they operate on him in return.

Swipe one way to accept a Multiverse,

Swipe another way to reject.

Don’t be daunted. Give it a go.

We’ve been sitting here too long to keep our

affects to ourselves.

I hear “Gold Soundz” and

wax nostalgic

all morning amid study of

Tarot cards and angel numbers.

The latter have appeared frequently: 222, 333

and the like. Guardians are in my corner,

helping me heal, encouraging me to keep up the good work.

Mellow Is the Man Who Knows What He’s Been Missing

My therapist’s office is a short walk away from the house on Shady. A figure in large, loosely-fitted clothing serenades me as I walk, singing “Dress You Up” from a street corner as I crest a hill. Another figure sings to me from a bus stop. The neighborhood has a bit of an edge, always has, air charged with noise. Birds, motorcycles, cars cruising up and down First and Second Streets. Construction work over by the ballpark up the hill. But what was before a desolate field is now a park.

“This park can be a place to perform the Work,” thinks the Time Traveler. Birdsong relaxes him as he sits at a table gazing toward the house on Shady. Walking the bend of the park, he reads a plaque about the 1778 Salem Waterworks, part of the park’s past. A waxing ¾ moon appears in the sky above the dome of the most notorious of the city’s landmarks, the one referred to by locals as the “Phallus Palace.”

5:55 turns up again as I rise from one of the park’s benches and continue on my way. Same numbers, same time of day, two days in a row. And there in the sky, the moon, near full. What of it? What of the tape on the telephone pole flapping in the wind? Or wind chimes in a neighbor’s yard, sounding like gamelans? Or wind in the trees? The air is cold, my walk brief.

I communicate with loved ones as best I can, sending and receiving valentines and giving thanks. Yet come evening I’m alone again in my flat, listening to Love’s “Alone Again Or,” cooking dinner for one. Spaghetti and meatballs. Wishing it were otherwise. “Yeah, I heard a funny thing,” sings Arthur Lee to flamenco swells, nervous violins.

Up on the stereo afterwards rumbles Richard & Linda Thompson’s “I Want to See the Bright Lights Tonight.” “I wanna be dancing and rolling on the floor,” thinks the Traveler, “I want it to be me and you.” Temperature rises, food cooks as I dance to Ananda Shankar’s cover of the Rolling Stones song, “Jumpin’ Jack Flash.”

It’s that time of my life, I guess, when all of these feel right: Shuggie Otis’s “Strawberry Letter 23,” Link Wray & The Wraymen’s “Rumble,” Suicide’s “Dream Baby Dream.”

Nico climbs atop the stack, bums me out with “These Days,” until Arthur Lee returns to remind me of how good it feels to always see your face. Songs replace songs as posts replace posts, but the music never changes, and I never quite learn the words I sing.

Returning to Shady

Clock reads 5:55. Across the street from my apartment — indeed, visible out my window — an office tower with its street address printed in large lit signage upon its side:

500

W5TH

Time to visit Shady Blvd, thinks the Traveler. He pictures the current tenant, hopes they meet. Hope begins by returning to the site of the story. A friend recommends Chris Ware’s Building Stories. Traveler resolves to grab it. That and House of Leaves. For the Shady story, if it is to be made into a book, must be of that sort: the story of a house. Tenants of multiple eras in the home’s history interact with the home’s energies, repeat the home’s patterns: the time loops impressed there. Unless it isn’t a repetition. Time is like aletheia: an unfolding, a revealing. A process of disclosure. Let each one’s story be told.